Amazing Grace

I don't know how many times I've sung "Amazing Grace" in my life. I've sung the words, "I once was lost, but now I'm found," numerous times without really understanding what that means. I don't know if I realized I'm found until last night. I was running and thinking about my best friend. She moved to a new place last September and has been having a hard time finding her place. I understand where she is coming from. When I moved back home I was so lost. I came home to get away from all kinds of drama going on in my life. I threw myself into church. I threw myself into helping with the youth and doing whatever I could at church. I was trying to lose myself in all that. I was trying to forget all the craziness and pain that I felt in my life. I know that I've grown a lot and changed a lot in the past three years. I'm not the same person I was when I moved back home. But it wasn't til last night, that I realized that I was found. I am happy with my life and I feel complete. It's love that completes me. But not love from a husband or a boyfriend, but love from God. The realization that what God does is mostly love us. I'm complete because of that love. I'm found because of that love.